December 13

Where do I begin…

Dwelling on the opening line

By In Thoughts 1 min

No, seriously. I took a week on my opening line. Then I breezed through a little, then got stuck.

I’m trying to celebrate having written 10,000 words but struggling because that’s about 40,000 less than I should be on right now.

Here’s my problem, as has ever been my problem: I’m happy and motivated when everything is going right, but as soon as the issues hit then I lose motivation. Queen of procrastination comes back. Suddenly I’m too tired, I don’t feel well, there are chores to be done, work to be done, TV to watch. Anything but writing.

My head is saying, in its lucid moments, that it’s a mindset. If I just force myself up those stairs and into that room and switch on the computer and stare at it, things will come. Trust me: I just find new ways to procrastinate. Previously I convinced myself I couldn’t write anything until I sorted out my mess of an outline. That’s done now, so I had to find a new excuse. My current fave is Christmas present browsing.

I had thought that the short deadline of 6 Month Novel would help me; maybe it still will. I know that I work best on panic deadlines. I’ll try not to let it be a matter if giving up, because this is my last chance really… Not to get melodramatic or anything!

Is the story any good? Can I actually do this? Will it go anywhere? Who knows. But I’m damn determined to make sure I get to the end, whatever it takes. I can do this. I CAN do this.

Just remind me of that tomorrow, ok?

Written by LJ McMenemy

Thinker of random thoughts. Writer of random dreams.
  1. Sue December 13

    β€œAt the still point, there the dance is.”
    β€”T. S. Eliot
    “You can do this Lauren.”
    β€”S.C. McKay

  2. Mum December 13

    WE know you can do this and YOU know you can do it —so just get on with it ????????????????

  3. Mum December 13

    Oops the question marks were meant to be kisses being blown πŸ™ xxxx


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